What was I doing last September 11, 2001?

As the world watched in horror, I was making out with somebody that I was not supposed to make out with under the bright blue sky. It was right after sunrise in the observatory. Energy was gorging into my veins after a very long day and emotionally charged night under the stars.
I was wearing an old white tank top that’s almost grey and tailored khaki pants with my big “ANGST” printed bag where a T-square could fit inside ready for the long day but certainly not ready for that night. All I remember was that I was burned out but still in control but wasn’t about to give up on things that were stressing me out. And I had all the “mojos” in the world. I’ve been preventing that event from happening for years because I think it’s wrong but it was such a WOW feeling when it eventually happened. Like the wonderful song by Robin Beck that was used in a Coca Cola TV commercial…
Yeah, it was a WOW feeling… it was not the undefeated feeling of failing the “marshmallow test” or of giving in to a temptation. It resembles that subdued feeling of the characters in “In the Mood for Love” it then reveals itself. Like there were fireworks in my soul. It was such a high that it took me a while to realize that my body is tired and the sun is starting to feel so hot.
I went home past 9 am, totally oblivious why everybody was tuned in CNN to get some sleep ‘cause there is a 2 pm talk in school that I had to attend. Then I wondered why there was an opening prayer and that was the only time I realized what actually happened.
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In hindsight, it really was a wow feeling. It was more than people doing things to settle unresolved issues. No “what ifs” to be addressed… it was an inevitable event and what a wonderful thing it was.

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Ramblings and Boohooos!!!!

Being away from my mobile phone is liberating (after the initial reaction –golly geez! Naiwan ko ang fone ko, paano yan)… It prevents me from reading messages from annoying people… being asked stupid questions about work… forwarded text messages that are way cheesy (okay, jokes are a bit tolerable)… and of course, chain text messages. It’s not like being completely out of touch, if it’s a life and death situation there are ways to reach me. So, only the substantial stuff gets through right now.

Our network just f$cked up when I was about to do system-related task… ha! ha! that’s why I get to write a draft of this blog.

How come people can’t say no… or say they just can’t do it?! Hay naku! Nakakainis esp when results are needed! Mahirap ba talagang tumanggi sa isang friend, eh kaibigan mo naman ‘yun! Kaya nga that’s what friends are for…so you can be honest… Hay, when a friend asks you for something, ang una mong iisipin if it’s answerable by YES or NO! Dapat mong isipin na di naman ito isang pabor, tanong lang naman ‘yun diba. Alam ng nagtatanong na puedeng YES or NO ang sagot! God! Why does it have to be a loooong shot to get that answer from a friend? Oh well, friend ko pa rin siya. May mga pagkakataon na ang isang tao lang hindi marunong sumagot ng yes or no!

How can you tell a person that she sucks at what she does?! I’m not perfect but I was not expecting those stupid answers from a normal person! (and stupid questions pa…) [I think stupid answers and stupid questions compete neck to neck to determine which one is worse than the other, (and perhaps I also suck to even ponder upon it).] Maybe those stupid answers do not mean that she actually sucks? She altogether sucks and no one can explain it!