Somewhere… Nowhere…

I’m not lost, I’m just in some place I don’t know. There is no such thing as nowhere, it is always somewhere. Nowhere is just a place you don’t know yet and it is still some place...

I don’t understand why I can’t get myself to wake up for work! And whenever I do so… the first thought that comes to my mind… “olats na naman ang araw na ‘to!” This is a start of another bad day… haay… Buti na lang work is composed of a lot of tasks that distract me from the thought of an "olats" (bad) day. Am I just too unhappy and unmotivated at work and to make it more pathetic... I’m just too lazy to work… too exhausted of getting myself out of this unhappy state.

What about QUITTING? Quitting is the best thing that could happen to me… It’s not about giving

up, it’s CHOICE.

Am I too lazy to live life or is it some choice???
Why would I be in the rat race when I can just chill? And besides, I’m just too lazy to move at all. In the movie, “Trainspotting” where the character of Ewan McGregor was saying that we DON’T NEED to CHOOSE LIFE, we can choose something else (well, in his case, he chose to be a heroin junkie, but the point is you get to CHOOSE).

Life is not about aspiring for things that everyone wants--like success, family-life, house, etc. The truth is, we were just made to want all of these, these things could be unsatisfying at times (or most of the time)... these things could put you in a state of comfortable slavery...

There is always an ALTERNATIVE to all of these... or choose to be fuckin' lazy!!! Isn't it just too exhausting to want more in life??? Do we really need meaning in life??? Looking for the "meaningful life" could be a futile exercise. Perhaps I'm just too shallow.... this a a philosophy of a shallow person.... like me...

I remembered a portion in the film, “Waking Life” (Society is a Fraud) where a group of men were talking to a certain Mr. Debord

“Why so glum, Mr. Debord?”

“What was missing was felt irretrievable. The extreme uncertainties of subsisting without working made excesses necessary and breaks definitive. To quote Stevenson: "Suicide carried off many. Drink and the devil took care of the rest"”

Hmmmnnn…. It talks about the Situationist Theory, which I really don’t have any idea what it is also about… “Subsisting without working” is the only thing I retained.

Subsisting without working is the best thing that could happen to me… but I was hoping to add some perks on top of the “subsisting” thing…like being able to go somewhere…

I looked up Situationist Theory, I have not fully understood the whole thing but here are situationist stuff that I could really relate to…

"I take my desires for reality because I believe in the reality of my desires" - Anonymous graffiti, Paris 1968

"Down with a world in which the guarantee that we will not die of starvation has been purchased with the guarantee that we will die of boredom." - Anonymous graffiti, Paris 1968

"Be realistic - demand the impossible!" - Soyez réalistes, demandez l'impossible! - Anonymous graffiti, Paris 1968

"Live without dead time" - Vivez sans temps mort - Anonymous graffiti, Paris 1968

"Beneath the paving stones - the beach!" - Sous les pavés, la plage! - Anonymous graffiti, Paris

1968

"Never work" - Ne travaillez jamais" - Anonymous graffiti, Paris 1968